Who am I?? (conclusion)

About two weeks later, after I got saved, I was cleaning the house for my mom (my mom was not there). As I was sweeping the floor, the broom pushed over the spirit house. I was terrified, “Oh no, what should I do?” Everything fell over; the spirit house with the offerings of food and drink were all over the floor. Normally, if this happens a Thai Buddhist would think something bad will happen to them, so they will quickly bow down and pray to the spirit to say that they are sorry. Instead of doing that, I ran to the bathroom and cried, because I did not know what to do. I knew that it would be wrong for me, now a Christian to bow down and pray to the idol. So after I was in the bathroom 10 minutes, I thought I will pray to God for wisdom. The answer from Him just came into my mind, “don’t worry, just pick up the stuff and put it back.” I still think of this to this day that God answered my prayer that day.


(What made me think that I should change from Buddhist to become a Christian? I was questioning what does Buddhism do for me? I never understood when the monk would pray or sing. Wow! When I was at the temple I never understood why I should bow to an idol that was made by a human. At times, I have even seen the people that are making a big idol step on it while making it. I never had peace in my heart. I was always looking for something else to fill my emptiness. And I never understood why we would go to the temple to give food and gifts to the monk, in hopes that they could take away our sin. Many monks still smoke and many cause trouble in the world. How could they take away my sin? When I contemplated it, I realized that they are just human, just like me. And they have no special power to take away sin, because they still sin. I know some monks are good people, but still they are human just like us. Do you think that they can really help us to go to heaven and have eternal life? )


When I was about 18 years old, I was studying humanities with a major in English at Bangkok University. The university was so big and I had so many friends, but I still did not feel happy with it. I was bored :O. I did not find going to school to be as exciting as I thought it would be. After my first year of school, I felt like I wanted to do something different, so I prayed to God to ask Him what he thought I should do. After I prayed, I was sitting in front of my house and Bro. Tom (Missionary from USA, want to know more about him go to : The Gaudet Family) came by and said, “If you have time, please talk to Miss Krinny (his wife).” “Okay, I will go now!” I responded. When I talked with her, she said they needed me to help with Thai Christian literature projects. This was perfect, because I had studied computers in high school in grades 10th – 12th. At first, I started working part-time. Later, I began to work full-time. Bro. Tom used a program that I had never used before, but he taught me how to use it. I kind of forget what I learn :D, but if I use it every day I can remember it and learn more and more. That was so much fun working with him. One more very big thing that I have learned is about culture. Dealing with the personalities of each person that I worked with was an adjustment for me. I was not used to living with other people besides my family. It was a very big move to move from my Thai family to live with foreigners, and I was the only Thai girl. At first, it was quite hard for me to be around them all the time. But, I thought this will be a good experience to learn how foreigners think and how to get along. When I look back, I think it is getting better and better each time there is a new person (new people always come and go). At first, I did not think I did a very good job adjusting, but overall it was a good learning period.

I am thankful to the Gaudets’ for taking care of me. They take care of my heart and soul, as well as me physically. They are like my American parents. I have Thai parents and now I have American parents :D. Sometimes, Bro. Tom handles some things for me that I do not want to deal with. I love working with them. When we go on trips (love love trips :D) to the refugee camps or to the border and hand out tracts, I get to see how the Lord is working in the lives of other people.


When I had worked with Bro. Tom for about a year (and now still), my parents moved to their home town (Lopburi) in order to take care of my grandpa, who is very sick right now. I can not tell you how much I miss them. They are sweet people. My dad calls me about three times a week to ask how I am doing or what I am eating...lol :D. They care about me very much. They did not worry about me living and working with the Gaudets, because they know the Gaudets and they know that the Gaudets will take good care of me.

When I was young, my dad was very protective of me. When I had a special class on Saturday, my dad would take me and he would wait for me. He would not let me take the bus (because I would always fall sleep on the bus and it would pass the school a long, long, long, ways :D). My friends would come on their own, but my dad always took me. When I was fifteen years old, boys started to call me. It did not matter if they were just asking about homework, my dad would try get to the phone first and ask them, “Who are you, why are you calling my daughter, where are your parents?” My mom and I thought that was very funny. He told me that if some guy wanted to marry me, that he would ask for a million baht bride price. I thought that I would never get married (but you know, if God wants me to remain single, I’m sure... I’m happy with that too :D…He will give me the best and He knows me better than anyone else!!), because no one could afford to pay such an expensive bride price. He did not like me to wear skirts, because he did not want guys to notice me. However, that changed. When I was seventeen years old, there was a young man interested in me. The young man talked to my dad about me. My dad said that he should talk to me, that I was old enough to make my own decisions. He said, “Whoever you love, I will love him, too.” I did not want to marry – I thought I was too young to get married at that time. I think my dad was happy with my decision. My dad also told to me that he will be there if I have questions and need help. He will give advice, if I ask him. Now he ‘gave’ his job of protection to Bro. Tom. Bro. Tom is now like my dad and protects me and I am glad about that.


...There are many stories about my life that I could tell. My life has had good and bad times in it, but there is not room for all and I do not wish to talk about the bad. So that is my life in a nut shell. (^_^)